He Just KNOWS Things…

He Just KNOWS Things

When I asked Stevie if he is excited to go to his new school, he squeaked a, “YAAAAHHHH!” with a giddy giggle to go along with it.  I have never seen him that excited. And I have never seen him excited to go to school. Ever.

I believe God prepares our kids for things that are coming. Sometimes, they just have no way to know of a change but they do know…

A few years ago, we found ourselves in need of another church. We did a lot of calling and emailing the church we were thinking of attending because when you have 2 with special needs, you can’t really go church-surfing to find the right one. So we did as much as we could ahead of time. And when we decided on the one, that is where we went.

On our first visit, we accidentally drove past the church, which was in a warehouse set back a bit from the road.  As soon as we passed it, Stevie started to cry.  We turned around and drove down the side street beside the church where we could park.  As soon as we made that turn,  he started clapping and said, “Yahooooo!”! It was like he KNEW this was where we were going.  He was only 2 years old. How could he know?

Not only did that happen, but we dropped the three children off in their Sunday School rooms with zero problems.  They all stayed happily until we picked them up. It was the first time that we got to sit through a full service without a child!  The kids asked to go back, and we have been at that church ever since (it’s been about 8 years!)

And now, we are sending him to a new school. And he is excited.

And I have to wonder, Does he know?

Has God, in all his mercy and wisdom, been preparing him as he sleeps at night?

Has he had dreams about it?

Has God somehow told him what is happening and that it is good?

This week we had a tour of the new school to show Stevie what it looks like.  He walked into the building and up to the receptionist like he knew just what to do. Stevie reached his hand into the reception window like he was going to grab something.

He took her hand, shook it, and in a deep voice said, “Hello, nice to meet you!”.

What a great start. And today, the first day of school, he smiled big as he left for the bus!

Here are a few pictures of his happy self:

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Coffee Time:

How has God prepared or spoken to your children? I'd love to here from you!

The What-If Questions: A Letter To Special Needs Moms


The What-If Questions LetterDear Special Needs Mom,

I wonder how you are doing? I often find myself thinking of you, when life for my kids with autism is thrown all up-in-the-air again, like it is now.

I remember how the what-if questions rocketed through my mind when we first found out about my son’s autism. And tonight, again, the questions shout deep from my mind and loud in my ears.  As I lay down, these questions alert the exhausted part of me which needs the rest deep sleep provides, to rise up and attend to their answers.

Only now, the what-if questions are about my son going to a new school. His new school is not only new to him, it is new to the area where we live. It is a school made specifically for children with autism who are unable to be successful in their current school district placement.

This school has so much to offer, including one-way mirrors (a parents dream!) so we can observe without interfering, medical and behavioral interventions, a highly desirable sensory OT room, full time therapists, full school days year round with only 2 one-week breaks!  And they can address some of the medical questions we have been unable to get answers to: Does he have seizures? Does he have full-blown Tourettes in addition to autism? Does he still have the same food allergies? Is there something else medically going on that is causing him to have such a hard time?

We have been on a difficult journey getting to this point.  I never would have thought it possible but now that we are here, one week away from the official transition there is that part of me that emerges when my head hits the inviting pillow and wonders:

What if he doesn’t like it even more than where he is now?

What if he feels tricked or cheated out of a summer break?

What if he misses Mrs. T —the summer school teacher that loves him?

What if the bus issues don't resolve but rather intensify?

What if, despite everything, he just plain hates it?

Sometimes we simply need to stick together, encouraging each other, you know? This parenting children with autism thing is somewhat new territory.  We are like the forerunners in the rising wave of children on the spectrum coming through the educational system, paving the way for those to come behind us. There are so many unknowns, which leads to so many what-if's.

But what I do know is true (Philippians 4:8), is that having Stevie in this new school is beyond what we ever thought we'd be able to have for him (Ephesians 3:20).  When the school presented the idea of sending him there, we kind of felt like laughing like Sarah did when God told her she was going to have a baby at her age! (Genesis 18:10-12). Her hearts desire was promised even though it seemed impossible. Nothing can stop the will of God. (Isaiah 14:27)

And nothing will stop His will now, either.

And you know all those interrupting what-if questions?

Statistics say the chances very high that we worried for nothing. Even better, God says he has our kids best interest at heart (Romans 8:28) and He has the ability to carryout his plans! (Philippians 1:6)

It will all work out for the good like He promised. It just sometimes a little scary in the in-between times, while we wait.

Right now I wish we could share stories, about the times we have worried so much about how things will turn out, but then God shined through with direction and solutions? Those stories give rise to faith and encouragement to the heart. (Hebrews 10:25)

Until next time,